I never knew what happens when you take on commitments. Noone told me it will take from you so much energy and time that you have to hold on to yourself.
I always spoke to my mother for strength. I still do. She lives with dad. They have been together oh-so-long and been through more than many people should. She was rising from the table and stopped for a moment to unfold her painful knee. I watched her rise slowly and proceed to the sink. she returned to say .. 'you know you should teach raam to surf and bike'..
I am this terribly self deprecating person who does everything she can to play down her three degrees and everything else. I dont get how to look past blemishes and feel happy.
Then I saw the person from whom I was drawing so much support. And just how incredibly tired she is.
Its probably the last time I heard myself say 'I cant'.. to her.
If she can smile with a stiff knee maybe I can jog and share a smile too.
If she can be hopeful despite all her life experiences maybe I should be giddy with positivity.
I always spoke to my mother for strength. I still do. She lives with dad. They have been together oh-so-long and been through more than many people should. She was rising from the table and stopped for a moment to unfold her painful knee. I watched her rise slowly and proceed to the sink. she returned to say .. 'you know you should teach raam to surf and bike'..
I am this terribly self deprecating person who does everything she can to play down her three degrees and everything else. I dont get how to look past blemishes and feel happy.
Then I saw the person from whom I was drawing so much support. And just how incredibly tired she is.
Its probably the last time I heard myself say 'I cant'.. to her.
If she can smile with a stiff knee maybe I can jog and share a smile too.
If she can be hopeful despite all her life experiences maybe I should be giddy with positivity.
