Just another day

Why would this sunday be different? It was filled with some house chores and babysitting. Im officially cheesed off at getting too little time to relax with my little 3 year old since Im so busy trying to cover all my 'ends'. These ends are annoying,repetitive and time-consuming. Considering Im sick right now, Im going to ignore the ends and spend a whole afternoon just relaxing around my 3 year old and wanting to do little else. Im convinced that this, and this alone - establishes good character, behavior and beliefs. Its not only disciplining and routine - but genuine calm relationship - that clinches good character. 

Watching and the watched

Its ridiculous. Why would I expect a 3 year old to "get" me. But apparently, he does. He observes my every move, evaluates it and assesses whether it fits into pattern or is an anomaly. Whether I am simply threatening or willing to carry it through. Through his little postures and nose-up-in-the-air he tests my limits to see where I will yield, where I am weak and how far I would go to hold my rules up. I dont disappoint. At some point as he talks about the wind moving the clouds I wonder where he stopped being a bewildered bumbling child and began talking coherently. Im not too sure when he started making statements and not ask questions. I wonder when he began looking at me and not for me. Somewhere in between these myriad days filled with schedules, something has changed or fallen into place. Oh, he became 3.