Having been kind to many people most of the time.. all the time, I have been stabbed in the back a few times. Few times compared to perhaps the average person, but by folks very close to me.
I have been derailed, hurt and left for dead.
If it were not for family I would not be here today to tell the tale.
Now the interesting thing is, though I am kind I am no saint. And I never considered being kind, again, to these offending parties.
However... turns out if the person is alone, sick or completely disheartened... my heart melts all over again and I am good to them. Giving of myself.
Initially I judged myself for being too soft and a sucker to please people.
I decided to give myself some more credit for being wise when I began to read literature supporting the idea of being kind to those who have hurt you.
'How you behave speaks volumes about you... how the other person behaves is enough said about them.' (thankyou, Marc and Angel).
Seeing as I consider myself a role model to my son... (all moms are - whether they admit it or not) - I picked the risky choice of showing empathy to those around.. whether they liked me or not.
I've been doing this for a few weeks and last time I checked - I still recognize the person in the mirror. Perhaps more than before.
So, I have healed and grown - and the only way to show that is to do good where cruelty was received.
I have been derailed, hurt and left for dead.
If it were not for family I would not be here today to tell the tale.
Now the interesting thing is, though I am kind I am no saint. And I never considered being kind, again, to these offending parties.
However... turns out if the person is alone, sick or completely disheartened... my heart melts all over again and I am good to them. Giving of myself.
Initially I judged myself for being too soft and a sucker to please people.
I decided to give myself some more credit for being wise when I began to read literature supporting the idea of being kind to those who have hurt you.
'How you behave speaks volumes about you... how the other person behaves is enough said about them.' (thankyou, Marc and Angel).
Seeing as I consider myself a role model to my son... (all moms are - whether they admit it or not) - I picked the risky choice of showing empathy to those around.. whether they liked me or not.
I've been doing this for a few weeks and last time I checked - I still recognize the person in the mirror. Perhaps more than before.
So, I have healed and grown - and the only way to show that is to do good where cruelty was received.
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