Madness

What did you do with the man I loved?
I married a clear pool;
A song that had begun
a bud that was blooming.

You hurt him so long ago
In ways that he didn't even know
You stole his childhood and
replaced it with pain and abuse

You had no right.
Power is no excuse.
Powerlessness is no excuse.
You have no right to inflict pain on
an innocent boy.

Today he is a Man.
Today he is the father of my child.
Today, my heart is with him.

Did you know
he would
one day stop seeing me with kind eyes
And seek to possess the light within me?

That he would stop rejoicing in my smile..
And seek to wipe it off every single time.

That he would lay his unwanted hands on me?
And think of it as his right?

That he would not sleep at night and
turn into a hungry lunatic following me
around the house like a ghost?

That he would shatter my heart like
a mirror and watch the shards in glee?

That the demons you laid in him
would cannibalize his mind?

Did you know you now have blood on your hands?
You have the tears of an innocent woman
and the cries of a young child on your hands now.

Did you know that you are never forgiven?

You are never forgiven for having
allowed your demons to seep into
an innocent child
the child I married and loved.

The boy who never was.
The man who never loved.
The father who never knew.

You are not forgiven.
For driving him into madness.